Eeek! I still can't believe tomorrow my oldest boy is off for his first day of preschool! How in the world did he grow up so fast!? Tonight I have a little boy who is fast asleep in his bed and all clean from his night time bath. His clothes and shoes are laid out. His backpack is ready and his little chalkboard is prepped for some first day of school photos. He is so excited.
I know this isn't as big of a deal as kindergarten or many other milestones that he will have but it still seems like such a big first step. Sure he has been to Sunday school, MOPS and swimming lessons on his own but I have still been there - just seconds away if he really needed me. However, tomorrow he will start this adventure on his own. It is a bittersweet day where he takes a big step of independence and I lose a little bit of control over his sheltered little life.
Sigh.
Thankfully I feel so confident about the program we have found for him. I really couldn't send him if I had doubts. As a teacher I knew I would be incredibly picky and I feel so fortunate that I found a program that met my standards. It is not a Christian program but comes highly recommended from a MOPS mom that was in my group last year (who also happens to be a very picky teacher too) and from my interactions with the teacher I truly feel this will be a good place to grow.
However, despite this I still think I am more nervous than he is about his first day. I just hope he finds some good little friends he likes to play with, and I hope he feels safe and comfortable, and I hope he has a lot of room to grow and learn, and I hope he listens well to his teacher, and I hope he doesn't pick up bad habits, and I hope I can get him there and pick him up on time (what if I forget?), and I hope he is brave when I leave him tomorrow and I hope he likes his teacher (and she likes him)...I really could go on and on. Some of my "I hopes" for Sam seem reasonable while some of them are a little irrational (come on - how could I ever forget to pick him up)? However, either way it is such a reassurance that I can turn them over to God and know that he will take care of this boy he has entrusted to me and guide him down this new path.
So tomorrow morning Sam will set off for his new adventure and Cole and I will be on our own. Poor little Cole, he is going to miss Sam so much!
I know this isn't as big of a deal as kindergarten or many other milestones that he will have but it still seems like such a big first step. Sure he has been to Sunday school, MOPS and swimming lessons on his own but I have still been there - just seconds away if he really needed me. However, tomorrow he will start this adventure on his own. It is a bittersweet day where he takes a big step of independence and I lose a little bit of control over his sheltered little life.
Sigh.
Thankfully I feel so confident about the program we have found for him. I really couldn't send him if I had doubts. As a teacher I knew I would be incredibly picky and I feel so fortunate that I found a program that met my standards. It is not a Christian program but comes highly recommended from a MOPS mom that was in my group last year (who also happens to be a very picky teacher too) and from my interactions with the teacher I truly feel this will be a good place to grow.
So tomorrow morning Sam will set off for his new adventure and Cole and I will be on our own. Poor little Cole, he is going to miss Sam so much!
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| We are all ready for the big day! |
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